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Penny had previously so broken her crate... that it was unusable.
So she and Schlimie were in the bathroom. And Homer in the
Kitchen. The Shep was crated and I think Penny had a hand
in breaking him out. They had broken out three times before,
and Penny has lived with the cat since June... While I wouldnt
trust her with a cat it is more because she is a puppy looking to
play than anything... which is what I think the Shep wanted...
it looks like she had a heartattack.. Some evil woman
wrote to say dogs dont tear up cats... they shake them to death,
lovely visual, however I doubt this was the case because Shane
was VERY FAT. Not shake material. And Shane was dog wise
She was 6-7 yrs old. With dogs and rescues her whole life.

And from my experience with friends dogs and cats... they do
tear them up... I have seen it...first hand... they do shake but
they also rip... Some people who call themselves rescuers
are evil..especially to people...

This Shep just threw my dog whatever into unbalanced...
The whole pack thing Maybe...

And Shane was never very healthy...being so fat... and it was not
becaue I fed her a ton...but how she took it in biologically. I had
given her a blood test recently, and because of it they put her
on anti biotics... never any big flags in blood work... just a feeling
with me.

It just sucks. So the Shep is being boarded. I have to find him
someplace asap.

And maybe not so oddly... I just dont know how I feel about my
dogs... Homer and Schlimie I have had for years. well since
after the fire. 2001. But I am having a hard time wanting to hug
them and touch them... which feels odd to me.

I think I am going to post this on my blog. Which I have been
trying to keep up with. trying to finish this film...

I feel like crap... The guilt is overwhelming.